December starts off in Nashville, and in stress

Monday nothing
Tuesday 25 min RUN/WALK with Nova
Wednesday nothing, snow, turkey cooking morning
Thursday, another nothing

Friday, I forget
Weekend, I got long dog WALKS on both days.

Monday we got in bed around 230 am, I was up at 7am (how?!) and back to work in a busy pre-surgery pre-holiday week. Renewed interest in WHBM type shopping, self care, and it was a good weekend overall to start the month. LA and I are both on edge, snippy, and short tempered. We're OK, but the stress is really underlying everything it seems. Waiting for STEP results and tired from traveling.

Tuesday up to run with Nova, then to work. Last night M3 was OK but random. I need to find casserole multi serving things to help. 

Wednesday the calendar says that next Tuesday before surgery is a new moon at 6:32pm. I need to quit deciding things based on the moon phase. But...New....metaphorphosis, evolution, again, repeat. I said this too in October before the surgery was delayed. Here I am again. Get specific. Get into it. Try dammit. 

Thursday no oats last night, and my gut feels so much better today. Yesterday, after Tuesday's oats for dinner, I was full and pained and bloated and heavy. Yesterday 1336, today 1308. Go figure. Lots of stress with the planning to go to Madison this weekend. I'd much rather we stay home and rest but I'm OK to go. LA, I think he needs down time to rest and get stuff done, he seems to want to go. I already like Madison, I don't need to take yet another weekend on the road to see it. 

Friday  not oats and no dates last night, and 1314 before a big BM. Finally the oats from the other night, haha? OOOhhhh some FB, regretted. Rice, regretted. I didn't want it but I wanted.....something. We did get a nightly dog walk, I did get to bed at 9pm, reading and Russian. 

Still no morning exercise, we're both stressed out waiting for the STEP 2 results.

Saturday and Sunday LA slept in A LOT, stress, waiting, and thankfully in the end we didn't go to Madison. We didn't need to. We needed this rest. What I didn't need though  was to find gluten free oreos, munch all day until I feel queasy, and still feel so unsatisfied and stressed.